After a couple of days feeling mentally and physically low, I am pleased to say I have bounced back and am now feeling much better.
I always struggle a little at this time of year. I don’t tend to celebrate the new year and haven’t been out on New years Eve for years. The last time I did was in 2004, just after the end of my marriage and it was a complete disaster, which seems to have scarred me for ever!
I now find it much easier to stay in and do a bit of wallowing on New Year’s Eve! I also try to do a bit of reflecting on the year that’s ending and think about what I hope for in the new year.
In some ways, it’s all bit easier this year, I have one aim … to have HSCT and to work hard to optimise my recovery. There is still a lot to do in order to get there …more fundraising, borrowing some money, arranging flights, visas and working out how all those offering to help can best support me. But, I feel so very sure that I’m doing the right thing and this will keep me going over the next few months.
Yesterday I went into town, something I rarely do (I hate shopping!) and it was a bit of a challenge. I only had a few shops to go to, but I struggled with walking so far and manoeuvring through the crowds. Ok Stockport really isn’t that crowded, but I have been avoiding busy places for a while, so it seemed crowded to me! I’m so sick of these limitations on my life – popping into town for a few bits is now a major operation!
Thankfully, I had planned to meet up with my friend Beth for coffee and cake, which was therapy as always …thank you Beth ?
Today I had brunch with Niamh, Rebecca, John and my gorgeous step-grandson, Albie …such a lovely way to start the day.
This evening I am watching TV, chatting to friends online, drinking gin and eating chocolate. My pyjamas are already on and it’s unlikely I’ll still be awake at midnight!
So, Happy New Year to everyone reading this. Thank you all for your support and kindness over the last year …it means such a lot to me. It’s been a tough year health wise, but over the last few months I have come to realise just how much good there is in the world and for that I am truly grateful xx
I hope you have a nice night in Vicky. I think your evening sounds perfect – doing what you want rather than what you think you should be doing! Enjoy your gin x
Thank you Anita. Happy new year xxx