133 A few updates

Work

With the start of the new term, I have been back at work this week.  Thankfully, my employer continues to advise that all those who can work at home, should do so.  As a person with chronic illness and disability, there are advantages to working from home – mainly that I can get up, log on and just get on with it, rather than negotiate the challenges of rushing about to get ready, sorting out a packed lunch and driving to the office.  In the past, I would often arrive at work feeling exhausted from the efforts to get there.  I don’t miss the parking issues, queues for the lift, long walk to the kitchen or having to go up or down a floor to visit the ladies. Now I’m starting my working day feeling fresh and ready to go and I haven’t used any unnecessary spoons just to get to that point.


You can read more about Spoon Theory here … The Spoon Theory written by Christine Miserandino

My cats have loved having me at home over the last few months and one in particular loves his morning snuggle on my knee each day.  He’s not at all happy that some mornings I’m now sitting at my desk and my knee is no longer available …

Of course there are down sides to working from home and I miss the contact with colleagues and face to face kitchen chats to quickly agree actions or find out information (all so much more formal and convoluted by email).

I have no idea what the new version of normal will be in the future, but I hope there will be continued opportunities to work from home, at least for part of the time.  I really feel this would help me to stay in work for longer – better for me and better for society. I know that many disabled people around the world are feeling this too.  

House move

Over the last couple of months, I have come to the conclusion that now is the time for me to move to a home without stairs. Thankfully, I haven’t had any further falls, but I’ve had lots of wobbles and near misses.  I’m anxious about the stairs every time I use them or cross the landing to go to the bathroom from my bedroom.  I love my little house and garden and I love the community I live in, but it’s not right to continue living like this for a longer period of time. 

Yikes! 😱

I have considered the option of having a stair lift fitted, but that wouldn’t take away my daily fear of falling from the top.  I also have a cellar here, which is another challenge, as for some reason no one thought to install a handrail.  The loft is also difficult to access and I don’t like having to ask for help whenever I want anything to go up or down.  In addition, this house is well over 100 years old and so needs continual maintenance and is expensive to heat.

So, I am now in the process of getting my house ready to sell. I’ve only been here for 3 years, and there was a lot of interest at the time of buying it. The housing market in this area seems buoyant, at least at the moment, so I feel this is the right time to go.  I have a plan coming together on where I’m moving to, but will keep that under wraps for now.  

HSCT

HSCT has started again in Mexico and I’m already aware of a couple of Brits who have made that journey and are now recovering at home.  The clinic in Russia is admitting patients again but I think visa issues have held up any Brits trying to get there.  Hopefully this will be resolved soon. 

I understand that some patients have started HSCT at the London hospitals, but no one is being treated in Sheffield just yet.  

I have an MRI scan in Sheffield on Thursday.  Professor Sharrack plans to compare this to the scan I had last July and if he can see new disease activity, he may still consider me for HSCT, which would be amazing.  I have very mixed feelings about this.  I started a new DMT (disease modifying therapy) a few months ago, which is hoped will reduce disease activity so it would be great if things are calming down. I have a feeling the scan will show a little activity, but not enough to meet Professor Sharrack’s criteria! 

I used to find the MRI machine terrifying – feeling trapped, unable to move, cut off from the world and with all manner of super loud clunking and grinding noises going on, but I’m obviously becoming desensitised now, as I haven’t started worrying about it (yet)! 


Tecfidera (DMT)

I am pleased to report that the initial flushing, rashes and itching triggered by Tecfidera have mostly stopped now.  I still have the odd day when this happens, but it’s much milder. I haven’t yet spotted a link that would explain why it sometimes happens, but more often doesn’t.  I have a blood test at the end of September to check liver and kidney function and once that’s cleared, there’s just possible hair loss to worry about! 

Many thanks to family and friends for your continued support with all these ups and downs 😘

130 Hello again

Hello everyone 😘

Here I am, starting another blog post with an apology!  I’m sorry there has been no update for over 7 weeks.  They have actually been quite tough weeks for me … I have been unable to work and have kept my circle very small, in order to cope (just close family and a few close friends).  

Looking back, I now realise I have been going through a period of adjustment.  My whole life was geared towards going to Russia for HSCT on 16th March and it has taken a while for me to come to terms with this being cancelled, at just a few day’s notice.  Not knowing when, or if, I’ll eventually get there, is a difficult position to be in.  I’ve had a deterioration in my walking over this time too, increased problems with my left leg, as well as increased joint and muscle pain.  All this has been going on while we have all been living in very strange times indeed … no wonder it all became a bit too much.  

I reported in my last post that I was soon to start two new treatments … one to hopefully improve fatigue levels and one to hopefully reduce MS disease activity.  

I have had no side effects or issues at all with Amantadine and a slight improvement in fatigue levels, so will be continuing to take this daily.  

I’ve had a slightly bumpy road beginning Tecfidera, with flushing, burning and rashes most days.  Thankfully, this is reducing each as time goes and is now just about manageable. 

I returned to work today and am pleased to report that everything went well.  I’ve had great support from my head teacher and my team, who have kept in touch during my absence.  I have a desk set up at home, with a lovely view and am looking forward to getting on with things.  

I’m trying not to think too much about HSCT and whether it will ever feel safe to go ahead.  I think it’s going to be quite a while until that decision can be made. 

129 What’s happening with my MS?

Hello dear readers, I’m sorry for neglecting you of late.  Today is my 66th day in lockdown and as everything is on hold, there really isn’t much to report!

I’ve had lots of messages and questions from family and friends about how my MS is affecting me at the moment and my plans for treatment, so I thought I’d write a bit of an update. 

Over the last few weeks, I have had telephone appointments with my GP, an occupational therapist, a physiotherapist, my neurologist in Salford and with the neurology team in Sheffield. My long awaited appointment with the MS Nurse has been delayed as she has been redeployed due to the pandemic.

The situation with Professor Sharrack in Sheffield is that he believe that I have Secondary Progressive MS with superimposed relapses.  This would exclude me from their criteria for HSCT treatment there.  They would like me to have a further MRI scan, which they will compare with the previous one, before making a final decision.  At the moment, the hospital is not carrying out routine scans, so this is likely to be on hold for several weeks/months/who knows?!

My own neurologist is very concerned about the length of time I have been without treatment and would like me to try another DMT (Disease Modifying Therapy).  He understands why I am pursuing HSCT but feels that it won’t be safe to travel for treatment for quite some time (a year or more was mentioned) and would like me to be protected from further relapses during this time.  So I have agreed to try Tecfidera.  This is taken in tablet form and reduces both the frequency and severity of relapses.  My neurologist thinks I am having lots of mini relapses, so hopefully this drug will reduce them.  

You can read more about Tecfidera here … MS Trust – Tecfidera

Regular blood tests are required when taking Tecfidera, including an initial test to check liver and kidney function, full blood count and diabetes status.  So, last week I went to Salford Royal Hospital for the test.  It was a very strange experience, having not left my local area for weeks and only occasionally driving around the block.

The hospital was eerily quiet and no one seemed to be wearing a mask, except me!  I was asked some COVID questions and had my temperature taken on arrival (by a man not wearing a mask) and several vials of blood were quickly taken (by a nurse who was wearing a mask). 

I have also been prescribed a drug that may help with my debilitating fatigue and brain fog and started it this week.  It takes a few weeks to begin to take effect, so fingers crossed it works for me 🤞🏻The drug is called Amantadine and is an antiviral which has been found to help 1 or 2 people in 5 with MS fatigue, although the mechanism for this is not known.  It is sometimes used to treat people with Parkinson’s Disease as well.

you can read more about Amantadine here … MS Trust – Amantadine

I am still off work and my GP would like me to stay off until both new drugs have had a chance to kick in.  I have very mixed views on this … some days I feel that I could manage work (at home of course) and on other days it feels like an impossibility.  Being at home has given me lots of time to think and come to the realisation that I need to make some changes in the long term (whether I eventually have HSCT or not) …I have no idea yet, what those changes might be. 

Alexandra Park, Edgeley

I have been continuing on my daily walk most days and some days this has been quite a struggle, as my left leg tends to drag and can often feel like a heavy, dead weight by the time I’ve walked a few hundred yards. A couple of weeks ago, I developed a severe muscular pain in the right side of my lower back.  I spoke to my Occupational Therapist about this and after much discussion, she worked out what was causing this problem.  Most of the time, I wear flat ankle boots when out and about, as I find these comfortable and benefit from the ankle support, especially on my left foot. When the warmer weather arrived, I started wearing flat lace up pumps and was aware that my left foot was dragging and would sometimes catch on the ground.  The OT worked out that I was leaning slightly to the right in order to accommodate my dropping left foot and that this was the source of my back pain … how amazing is she?!  So I have now been provided with a device to help lift my left foot, which should reduce tripping risk and take the pressure off my back. 

It’s ugly and a little uncomfortable, but I’m going to persevere with it.  If it keeps me mobile, who knows, I may grow to love it!

A combination of Tiger Balm, hot water bottle and gentle movement has healed my back pain, so I’m back on my feet again. 

With my son’s dog Odin 😍

I hope you are all staying as safe and well as you possibly can 😘